Deola's Diary

I used to think love should be loud. With signs. With urgency. With something dramatic enough to convince me it was real. But God had other plans. The love He introduced into my life did not shout. It whispered. And somehow, that whisper carried more weight than all the noise I had known before. “God is in the wind, the earthquake, or the fire, but He is also in the still small voice.” And that is exactly how this love showed up. Quiet. Steady. Sure. It didn’t arrive trying

There comes a point in life when you realize that not everything you inherited was meant to be kept. Sometimes, these things are taught from the place of love; while others were taught and shown in fear and with fear. It could even be because nobody stopped long enough to ask, “Is this actually true?” And that’s how cycles are born. We are taught things so early that they feel like facts. “This is how it has always been.” “This is just how life works.” “This is how women surv

Let’s talk about long flights. I recently took a direct flight that lasted over 12 hours, and honestly… it was one of those trips that reminds you how important comfort is especially when you’re stuck in the sky for half a day. I went in hopeful. I mean, it was a direct flight, so I thought, “Okay, at least I won’t have to deal with connections and stress.” But from the moment I got to my seat, I already knew I was about to be tested. My Seat Partner and the Beginning of Waha

Hey Future husband, I hope that when you read these letters, you see how much I anticipated your arrival and I hope you smile. Writing these letters is like a therapeutic experience for me and I hope you love each of these letters as much as I loved writing them. When I think of you especially in recent times; I see a man who looks at me like I am his first baby but also like the love of his life. I see a man that makes me smile without even trying, I see a man that loves my

Let’s be honest, asking for help is not for the weak it is actually a strength to be able to let go of your pride & ego to ask for help. It’s for the strong, the mature, and the people who are tired of suffering in silence while pretending everything is “fine.” Because why is it that you can carry the whole world on your head, but the moment you need support, you suddenly become shy? Suddenly you are quick to say: “No, I’m okay.” or “I’ll figure it out." or “God will help me.

Happy New Year, beautiful one. Welcome to a fresh year, a fresh breath, and a fresh invitation from God to live differently. Not louder Just bolder . Not busier Just more intentional . Not perfect Just fearless enough to try again . This year, you are not entering with anxiety. You are entering with alignment. Because you didn’t survive all you survived to spend another year shrinking. This Year, We Are Choosing Bold Bold doesn’t always mean dramatic. Bold can look like: Star

There are no perfect words for this, but let me see if I can try. You feel like a paradox; someone I’ve never truly known, yet somehow my soul recognizes you without hesitation. It’s really strange how I can look at you and feel a sense of belonging, even though I’m still learning who you are. You are both a mystery and a memory, both unknown and unforgettable. You feel like someone I’ve known forever, and yet when I look closely, you’re still a mystery. You’re a stranger in

In the story of my life, I could list all the achievements I’ve gathered up to this point. And honestly? Not to blow my own horn, I can definitely say that I’ve done well for myself. Still I find myself wondering; where are you? What are you doing right now? What are your likes and dislikes? Your hobbies? Your turn-ons and turn-offs? You’re the part of me that’s still missing. The piece that completes the puzzle. So come be who you were created to be. My husband. My friend.

There are days when the weight of the world feels like it’s sitting on your chest. Yeah… I know those days. The kind where everything feels like a little too much, even things that normally wouldn’t bother you. Like you're carrying invisible weights on your shoulders and no one can really see it. It ’s okay to cry. It’s okay to feel. Some days, surviving is more than enough. You don’t have to have it all figured out today. Just breathe. One breath at a time. I feel that pain

This morning, I woke up thinking about how sweet it will be when we finally meet. Or maybe we’ve already crossed paths and you’re just taking your time. How much longer do you need to step up your game? Are you missing me as much as I am missing you? Do you long for me the way I long for you? I’m starting to wonder if you’re as feeling all the emotions as I am because at this point, I’m over the waiting. The lonely and cold nights, the unending thoughts of you, of us. The yea

Sometimes I feel like people have an opinion about why I don’t have a man, as if I’m supposed to just "find" one somewhere, like it's as easy as going to the store or holding an audition. Sigh   It’s like I’m meant to check off a list and voilà, the perfect guy will appear. But here's the truth: yes, I want to get married. Yes, I don’t want to be on this journey alone. But I also need the right man. I’m not searching for the perfect man with six-pack abs, a six-figure salary,

For a few days, weeks or maybe even months, there has been this relentless unrest in my mind. I come out looking well put together and all excited but deep down, there was a waging war of deep uncertainty and fear. I laid in bed most nights unsure of what the next day would be like; it was even hard to pray. I would say a few words of prayers thanking God for waking me up and committing the day to Him but that was all I could do. And in the midst of all these; I still had to

Do you believe that there is no limit on your life except the one you have placed in your mind? You can’t step into what you’re too afraid to imagine. God didn’t create you to just survive. He called you to see , to believe , and to move . You will only go as far as your vision can stretch. Not your age, not your background, not your location, not your bank account; your vision . I hope you know that God is not limited by your circumstances or the situations around you. The l

There’s something comforting about walls. They create boundaries. They offer protection. They give you control or so it seems. For a lot of us, the walls we’ve built around our hearts didn’t go up overnight (Rome wasn't built in a day). The walls were built tile by tile, brick by brick, from experiences, betrayals that we never saw coming, disappointments that has shattered our hopes, moments when trusting others only left us wounded or heartbroken. At first, when you start b

Hurry Up Have you ever sat with your head in your hands, heart heavy with disappointment, eyes filled with quiet frustration and you are just whispering, “God… how much longer?” J ust checking to make sure I am not alone . Because I have. I know for a fact that waiting on God can feel like being stuck in a hallway and every door seems closed just for you because everyone around you seems to be doing just fine and walking through with ease. You've prayed. You've fasted. You've

Think about God as the ultimate investor, who is giving out gifts and talents like a divine venture capitalist. Everybody gets a gift according to their abilities; some get five, some two, and some just one—but here’s the catch: He definitely wants a return!  Not because He’s broke or he needs it because heaven’s treasury is doing just fine, but because He wants to see if you can handle more. The real question is— what are you doing with what He gave you? What Has God Given Y

When was the last time you read a love letter that made you giggle and your heart happy? A love letter that lightens your mood and brightens your day. Not a "you up?" text at midnight or a "Good morning beautiful" text, but a real, heart-pouring declaration of affection. There’s something magical about words crafted with intentionality, and no one has does this better than the Songs of Solomon . This biblical book is not just poetry; it’s a symphony of romance, intimacy, and

Have you ever had a decision stare you in the face so hard that you start looking away, hoping it’ll magically disappear? Recently, I’ve been in this weird limbo where I know what I need to do, but accepting it? Whew. That’s another battle. So, if you’re in that place where the weight of a decision feels like carrying a bag of rice on your head, let’s talk about it. There comes a time in life when you’re faced with decisions so big, so life-altering, that it makes you questio

Once upon a time, there was a little girl; we will call her "Queen in Transition" moving forward and that Queen is you. Her heart was heavy from carrying burdens she didn’t deserve. You didn’t know where to go or who to turn to, so you found solace with yourself. You became a comfort for yourself, your friends and family and even you own hero. And a lot of times, you felt alone, unwanted, unloved, and never enough. But here’s the thing about this queen in transition: no matte

Fear has a way of showing up just when you’re about to step into something new or significant. It grips your thoughts, quickens your heart, and sometimes makes you second-guess yourself. But here’s something you need to hear: the moments when you’re most scared are often the moments you should act the most. Fear isn’t a stop sign; it’s a signal that you’re on the brink of something meaningful. The Causes of Fear Fear doesn’t come out of nowhere—it has its roots. Maybe you’ve